i dont know why but i just cant get to sleep. i've been having these feeling since last night. i just feel very restless. my heart seems to be thumping fast. its like a premonition. its like something bad has happened. what? to whom? i dunno. bt m scared. i really am.


Friendster Horoscope for July 21, 2008
Sagittarius (Nov 22 - Dec 21)
The Bottom Line
Reminiscing about the past is better when you have someone to remember it with.
In Detail
You'll see something or someone today that reminds you of an important event in your past, and you should follow your urge to wander down memory lane for a while. Reminiscing about the past is always better when someone else is remembering along with you, so find someone who was in your life then and give them a call or send them an email. This shared time in your lives might not be terribly significant, but thinking about how much you've grown will be rewarding.

omg. this is so bloody true larh. i did see someone today that was once important in the past whom i quickly ran away frm and whom my bro says is ugly which i think so too. haha. ok. so there was the memories part. bt bad bad bad memories. n yes "This shared time in your lives might not be terribly significant, but thinking about how much you've grown will be rewarding. " it wasnt significant at all. bt m happy on hw much i've grew after all that happened. hmmm. horoscopes can be true sometimes.


tired. tired. tired. supper super super tired. i skipped work today to go and buy my new phone. bt then in the end no phone. onlie left with unfinished project. and so i thot the project would end early and so i can go buy my phone. bt then we worked on it till 9 till the library close. n nw still on it. so nw. no phone. sad sad sad. n god knows when will my mum be free. mayb weekends. bt then will i be free. or do i have to skip work again. gosh. infuriating. m damn tired right now. bt i cant slepp cause we are barely done with the project which is due 2moro at 9 am. ok wait. i think we are finishing. i think.


if only in life there are times in which you could just stop the time. make everything stop. everything. everyone. except you. so that you could just think about stuffs before making a decision. than mayb that would be no such thing as regret. or mayb time when you can make time stop so that you can think about the things that happen in the past before going into it again. than maybe mistakes wont repeat for the second time. or mayb stop time and then an angel and devil wud be appearing and tell you the right and the wrong than maybe you can learn how to make the right decisions. bt then. this is life. nt fantasy. so i gues such things can onlie happen in my dreams.


boy. youre useless. gosh. n damn it. that was just a stupid excuse to start a fight with me. cant our friendship really withstand the power of time. idiot. eyy eyy eyy. were bestfriends and thats all we cud ever be. i've always treated you as my dearest friend. my confidant to whom i could share my problems with. thats all. nthing more to it. yes. i love you as my friend as my brother. im sorry if i've given you the wrong idea. n seriously i didnt mean to hurt you. that was just the first reaction that came to mind. i seriously didnt mean to laugh at your face. m really sorie dear. yar. it was my fault at hand as i was such a bustard. bt then seriously this is just a stupid excuse to end our 5 years worth of friendship. i've tried hard to make it up to you bt nevetherless youre still ignoring me. bt i'll wait cause i know our friendship is stronger than that.

sorie. i was just feeling emo for the moment. i've been fighting with loads of ppl lately. n with my dear 'boy' friend which whom i dont wanna fight most with. hope he gets over it soon. n yes. my fever is up again. damn it.


2 days rest and i am all ready and set to go. nw no more slacking. rush rush rush. rush for RHT project. rush for BCS project. m so dead. all due on monday. gosh gosh gosh. nw m starting to panic.ok dont blame me. i was sick for the past three days. actually it was an after-effect of that night. so i gt two days mc and skipped school yest and today. how heavenly. bt they say all good things would come to an end. true enuf. school's up 2moro.


gosh. every mistake you make. every thing you do. all just seem to be correct. wth. they never meant what they say. they always relent towards the end. n every fight we got into. im always the one at fault. f**k you larh. you claim to be an adult. so please start acting like one larh. for goodness sake. youre twelve. you being the youngest doesnt mean that you are a young master ok. g0 t0 h*ll larh. i just dont understand you and i just dont understand them more. saying things but never doing what they say and thats why you turn out to be the way you are nw. they are never this easy to sis and me back then. bt you just get everything. n i mean everything. it just isnt fair. ok fine. say that i am jealous. i admit i am cause things turned out this way for me just because they didnt relent to me back then while you just get everything in your way. and for goodness sake. dont be unsastified with everything like as if the whole world or atleast i owe you a billion bucks or the world. grow up larh kiddo. you've got all the freedom you want whereas i am only entitled to them now. if only i was given these freedom earlier like you was then maybe thing would have turned out differently.

n yes. i broke my promise. i feel so untrustworhty.
slowly, i am just getting used to this silence.


shagged. like totally. i feel so tired. there was loads of flights today. have to run in and out. bt. i love my sis. they say relationships between sisters are always closest. she wasnt werking bt she dropped by at the airport and brought me two slices of pizza. a large white chocolate from coffee bean. and a bottle of peach tea. and so. nw m alone at home. therre a game at 9.30. everyone should be otw there now. bt i am so tired. can i pass todays game? yes. and get screamed at. no players.

sayang.
i rather you'd not be nice to me.
i'd hate you for that.
cause i know we're impossible.

n 'boyfriend'.
m sorry.
i seriously didnt mean to hurt you.
that was just a reaction of surprise.
i didnt know how else to react.
m reallie sorry.
i so need to talk to you.


*edited*

he stopped me in time. or i would have done something very stupid.


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Shagged. Like Totally. just got hm about a few minutes ago. that concert was ok i guess. better than two years b4. ouh. the opening were frm the ugs. they this this dancing thing but they were in their full u. cute larh sey. in np there were some of my darling sec ones. oh no. they shud be in sec 2 nw. n this year sec ones. they were dancing like super cute larh. the rest were ok ok. didnt meet those ppl whom i dont wanna meet. which is a gd thing. ws quite fun larh in all. got to meet ppl whom i've nt met for ages. ok larh. m crappin cause m terribly tired. nitey.

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