some ppl has just nothing better to do but to go around and talk about ppl. just two words for you guys. no life. thats why you have to butt into ppl's life so much. pathetic losers.


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ok. m having like a heart to heart talk with sis right now. ok nt a rare thing. bt yeah we are like at the opposite side of the room. and we arent seeing each other faces. bt we are talking across the room. it all started thanks to this msg. and then there my sis goes making assumptions. ohhh. according to her she has gone thru much more so her words are real. ohhh. lets see. she is like trying to dig things out of me. bt hahaha. m never gonna spill it out. ohh sis. you'll know when the time is right.

work today was fun. bt tiring though. there were loads of laughters. bt bt i am hurt in alot of ways on my body. be it my fingers or shoulders or legs. thanks to the boxes. bt oh wells. off 2moro.

n yay. mum is treating us. me n sis to do our hair 2moro. haha. ok. i thot that since i was werking this year and i had to pay my own. bt yay. she is still paying like any other years. bt still. m contemplating. yes m going to highlight my hair. bt m aontemplating on whether to stick to rebonding or make soft curls to my hair. hmmm. lets see what the hairdresser has gotta say. bt seriously i want a change of hairstyle.

ps: there is a MANU game ltr. haha. ok. like anione is interested. m constantly reminded by this sumone of the game. bt like as if i watch soccer. bt oh wells. to those who watch. REMINDER. the game is at 2.15AM today. haha. by the time you guys read this. the game wud be over. bt oh wells.


COUNTDOWN: 3 DAYS LEFT.

its been 4 days. and three days is what its left. n i've gt my answer. thank god. i guess. m letting it go. i've list out the possibilities and letting it go is the right choice for me. yes. it will be. it'll hurt ppl bt sometimes in life you gotta be selfish n this is the time that i gotta be selfish for myself. i dont want to do sumtin that i will regret ltr on. i want to be true to myself. i tried holding on bt i can no longer take it. sorry is all i've got to say.


COUNTDOWN: 4 DAYS LEFT.

should i go for it? or shud i just let it go? if i were to go for it. would i have regrets? what if the thing that i've always anticipate to happen happens when i go for it? then what wud be the situation then? awkward wudn't it be. and will i get used to the drastic change in life? and the most impt is. wud i be happy then? maybe i wud. bt is that just familiarity or is there more to it? i dont know. if i were to let it go? would i hear news that will make me regret for life? and is my decision what i want or isit just a case of sympathy? if its just a case of sympathy. would anione get hurt in the end? i promised to try didnt i? bt did i make an effort to try? i guess not. bt i just cant make myself to. either way. wont my decision hurt somebody in the end? so what shud i do?

can anybody ans those ques? being in this dilemma is the last thing i want. gosh. help me. oh god. gimme answers. please. ya allah. kau yang maha besar. kau yang penyayang dan yang pengampun. lapangkn larh hati hambamu ini dan berikan larh nya petunjuk atas apa yang harus diperlakukan beliau. amin.

4 days is short. i cant make up my mind. NAZZZZZZ. S.O.S PLEASE. i really really need your help to think things through.


oh oh. i forgot. i gt new names for my child. hehe. presenting.
Girl->Elfritza Daniella [L-FRIT-ZA DA-NI-EL-LA]
Boy->Muhammad Danish Elfye [MU-HAM-MAD DA-NISH L-FIE]
haha. there is more to come. naming ppl cud be ever so fun.


"you know. sometimes. between two ppl, its like you can sense that somehow the other person likes you back but youre unsure. and then both ppl dont dare to say anyth and it passes. and he moves on. but in your heart, he is still lingering coz of what he'd done to you. and then you are stuck and cant move on
sometimes we try so hard to make him jealous that we didnt even think of what he felt hor. as in like, you keep talking abt someone else in front of him in an attempt to get something out of him that he now feels inferior and so he didnt dare to make the move and then regret afterwards but then, life's full of risk taking. why was it we didnt take the risk to make the first move"

that whole para was quoted by sumone. it makes sense. like totally. and it did make me think a whole lot about it. regrets. are there any? i wish i cud delete that word from my vocabulary cause it sucks big time. bt then agn. in life. there are bound to have regrets right. so i cn run away frm it unless i dont do anitin at all. bt then still even if i dont do anitin. there'll be regrets on why i didnt do those things. so regrets. mayb its one of the main things in life.

ok. talking about regrets. i kind of regret quiting my previous job. cause this job is totally absolutely boring. gosh. yeah the pay is quite good though. for the whole 7 hrs of work just nw. i paced up and down the shop. sit and stare into space. sang to the flow of the music. and danced to the beat of mi dance. yes. thats what i did. there werent really much customer. i cn cound them with like my fingers. i dont even need my toe. gosh. bt yeah. since i made up with that decision. i have to live with it. jia you ellyana. gosh i wished i cn work together with sis wawa. same day. same time. then it wudnt be as boring.


Can feelings really waver that easily? I really wonder.

this past few days have been rather long. so first day of new job three days back. i wasnt posted to airport yet cause pass havent settled. so i had to go to the warehouse. it wasnt that tiring. i shud say that it was rather dusty-fying. seriously the job is kind of boring. maybe i havent got to know the ppl there yet. i kind of miss PMS right now. its funny on how they start calling me the day aftr i resigned. asking about stuffs and so on. haha. ok. what to do. i cn be considered the most senior part timer there. gosh i miss them. so i started working at the airport back today. it was kind of okay. btw. do i really look kiddy? gosh i cant believe that ppl say i dont look my age. not that i look older or sumtin but i look younger. whats this mann. pfft.

i got back my results. one word. horrible. totally. gosh. ok. thats the consequences for taking it lightly and for not studying i guess. bt m quite happy though that i didnt have to go for supp paper. bt still. next sem. i cant slack animore. i need to get a better gpa. if not by the end of my diploma my gpa will be bad. i have to make it to university. cause that is the one term that have been negotiated and promised to my mum before she finally relents and let me enter poly. so i seriously have to do well. and not forgetting the plan i have with sis wawa. we are going to the same university abroad together and stay together. yes we can do it. ok she's done it. her gpa isnt suckish like mine. so i have to do it.

ouh. D disease is back again. m seriously at my wits end. i dunno what to do animore. excuses is all that i could think of. bt will it end this off. maybe. maybe not.


it was my last day of work today. i tendered my resignation. at first it was feelingless but when it comes to the end of the day it was pretty sad. you know the goodbye. eventhough i didnt like werking there bt still the ppl were kind of great you see. fun and laughters. it was sad to leave them. seriously. bt its ok. i cn still meet them. we are onlie a skytrain away ppl. its within walking distance too. yeah. so starting my new job on monday. nt really looking forward to it cause i'll be at the warehouse temporary. gosh its at macpherson cn. so far. bt m really looking forward till i get my pass n proceed to airport. woohoo. excited seh. sis. here i come. woohoo.

ok. this few days i've been observing ppl. especially pri school kids. its kind of cute seeing them as a couple. super cute. its like they have nothing to fear about. like i like you you like me. n then we are called a couple. n when i dont like you animore. bubye. no hard feelings and we will still be bestfriends. how cool right. wish i cud still be like them. mmmm. Romatica D'Amour.


the day was bad. bad bad bad. slept late the night b4 n i had to go to work today. yeah. my parents are nagging. asking me to quit. i need the money mann. i cant quit. even if they increase my allowance. i wont have the luxury as now n i cant go out as often then. boring seh like that. ok back to the point. n so i woke up late. n rush rush to work. reach work dh happy seh. niarie bdk sumer gerek2. n then guess what happened. i was getting ready to go in for flight when my friend realised the i dont have my pass. i panicked like hell larh seh. i thot lost. called home ask mum to check. she say dont have. was super scared if i loose it very mahfan. n so aftr a few minutes of searching. found it. as they were to lazy to sent it to me as they just woke up. i had to rush back home larh. suayness. there wasnt much flight so we spent our time looking for things and shop at the transit area. was fun. haha. n so knocked off early. super tired. n so. the night came and things came. gosh. i wonder whats with me seh. always getting myself into these kind of trouble. i should change my habit. serious. maybe i should stop socializing and be a loner. less troube. yes. thats it. ouh is first day of puase 2moro. ouh i mean ltr. m goin to sahur sekali and then go to bed. so excited. muahahaha. i look forward to puase more than raya. why? because i dont have anywhere to go for raya. yes. nowhere. ok a little. most of my family members are gone. what for raya seh. no so exciting at all. but puase fun. m going to make kuih this year. excited seh. woohooo.

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